Okay....so.....I think I need some words of encouragement.
I know I'm kinda new to Tpunks....BUT, what better way to get to know everyone than to just lay it all out here?
I have been soooooooo excited to travel! Been reading alot, devouring travel journals, researching, making lists, shopping for my pack (not yet purchased), and have announced my pending trip to family and friends..etc.......BUT...
I haven't committed to a date, as I'm waiting on a "few things". Waiting to hear when my roommate will be moving...as it may be sooner than is convenient for me. So, been trying to get a handle on that. I'de like to get through another bonus at work...yada yada. So, I feel like all these things have been a cause for me to postpone actual commitment. I just really want to make good decisions about all this....
So, in the interim.... I've begun to waiver about the trip itself. I got sick, miserably sick...and started thinking WAY too much (which I have a tendency to do). Now I'm feeling worried about leaving for so long. Thoughts that range from: Am I completely insane? Am I crazy for quitting my job? Can I sell all my stuff? I'm financially stable....should I really risk all that?? Should I just keep my job (that I like) buy a place and go for a few short trips??????
But then I'm thinking.....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! This is the time. I have the money....I want/need to experience independent travel! I've been dreaming about it for so long....
WTF? Everything was so clear a month ago.....but now...
I guess I'm just feeling scared.....scared to leave the life I know.
2 years ago I was married and thinking about having kids. KIDS! I dunno...I may just be freakin' out a little.
Is this normal for me to go back and forth like this? What is the best "plan of action"? I keep thinking that maybe my lack of committing to a date is causing me to re-prioritize constantly...which is causing all this confusion.....Bleh.
Any thoughts?
Thanks Tpunks.