I am unofficially clinically depressed.

I feel like my life is wasting away in front of me and there is nothing that can be done. I need a pick-me-up like a week in mexico but I have neither the cash nor the gumption to do it. My utilities for last month are close to 450 dollars and I have 100. I am overweight, lonely and NOT TRAVELING. My faith, where I should find comfort, only serves to frusterate me more when I think of all the hypocrits and the seemingly total lack of monetary help I am getting from the creator of the universe. I need a drinking binge but the thought of drinking in this heat only makes me sick to my stomach. I need a girl but the thought of placing my depression on someone else for a temporary period of time makes me naseus knowing that it will just fall back to me within the week. I need to ride my bike for a couple days and forget about life but once again i do not have the money to even get my bike fixed to be rideable. I am jobless and none of my leads are coming through. My best friend is stuck in NY and I am unable to contact him for at least another month.

Travelpunk, I love you. Thanks for being my sounding board in good and bad. My one friend that is always here 24/7. I need a cookie.

*hands Jake a box of cookies* http://www.cosgan.de/images/smilie/traurig/d050.gif

ok enough with the cookies. I had a few thank you very much. they didnt help

jake...i'm suffering through the heat with you. even the 4 minutes i day i spend running from my apt to my car, car to my work, work to car, and car to apt....is TOO much heat for me. the relentless sun burns my arms as i drive home everyday. :thumbdown: az makes vegas look like an icy pool.

:wub: i hope you find some source of pleasure soon...temporary or not. go for a run (indoors, in a gym) the endorphins are like drugs.......or.....take some drugs. :whistle:

i am going home to southern cali for the weekend..im counting the minutes until i leave.

What temp is it there?

It is 90 with a humidity of 57% (feels like 97) here...do I even want to know how hot it is there....?

laurie are you in the valley? we should have a meetup


yea adam it's hot and the whole freakin state is burning. Phoenix is sorrounded by wildfires

yeah I just looked it up, in Surprise, Arizona it's 111 degrees F...... That's Freakin Hot

welcome to the desert.... to top that off like I said the valley is covered in smoke from all the fires.,

adam..where r u at...by the temp I'm guessing somewhere in the south/south west.

today it is 110 with no humidity. everyday..i feel the moisture being sucked from my skin as i race across the parking lot at work for my car. this state is pure hell from may-sept.

jake...i'm not in phx...i'm in tucson. not sure if i'm in a valley though... ;) i didn't grow up here. yes, a meet up would be refreshing if i didn't work every moment i'm awake :thumbdown: :angry: .

any other tpunks in az besides us?

It's sunny and 70 here. :blink:

i thought i was alone in this state until two minutes ago laurie...

what are you doing in tucson? and you never have a free moment?

I'm Actully in Indianapolis, IN and I have been doing Construction for the past two weeks and DYING from the freakin heat... it wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't so damn humid and their was even a hint of a breeze

SV :boxing: you and your 70 grrr

SV-stop teasing me.

Jake-i came to the U of A for college and have been here since i graduated...working at a hospital down here. not a doc ;) ...i'm in the business office. even though i've been here for more than a few years now i still dont consider myself an arizonian. not until i stop bitching about the heat (which will never happen).

adam and I are good ole HOOSIER boys... woop woop!

OHHHHHH I-N-D-I-A-N-A Who Who Hoosiers!!!

okay now that I got that out of my system

<--IU Alum

laurie are there any pics on tpunk to go with your 130 posts?

The best advice I can give you when you're feeling on the down and outs is to lose yourself in something. Be it reading, music, physical activity, just anything thats positive. Being depressed is a huge cycle of beating yourself up and it won't go away until you realize how hard on yourself you are being. The worst possible thing you can do is sit around and think about it or try to drink away your problems. You're only going to make it worse.

I'm no stranger to how you're feeling and its all learning to how to deal with it, you can't beat yourself up. My biggest realse is working out or going for a run and it works like you wouldn't imagine. Negative energy is so easy to turn into a drive to run further or faster or lift more and seeing these positive results is a huge pick me up.

Anyways, I don't know if I've touched on anything thats relevant. Just thought I'd throw in my 2 cents.

thanks pin, You've no doubt once again given the best advice to be found. Commendable. :cheers:

I totally second Pinion's advice but I've told you shit like that before and you never listen to me. :nono: :lol: :kisscheek: