you guys are too much, thanks for the words of encouragement.
so yes, the reason i didn't get into the UW was because my GPA is too low. (low enough i don't even want to say). a few years ago i took a full coarse load of classes and stop going to them without withdrawling from them.
every semester before and since i've made high A's & B's with an occasional C. that one semester seems to be my black rain cloud that i'm having trouble shaking.
anyhow, so i had already decided to attend community college this fall and then reapply to the UW next year. i can still work on my bachelor's degree without actually attending UW. and when/if i get in next year, my credits will transfer.
so i've by far not given up, i just took the rejection a bit hard because i feel i haven't been living up to my goals as of late. that i haven't really been doing much of what i really want to do or of things that really mean something to me. so i guess i'm just a failure in my own head right now and am having a hard time convincing myself otherwise. and it's discouraging to have to wait to prove something to myself. i'm not getting a bachelor's degree because i think it's the best education, i'm getting it because it's a 'foot-in-the-door' later on in life when you apply for jobs. and now i'm getting married soon and i want to have to children soon, but i defientely want to finish my degree before i get catch up with a family.
and then there's starbucks which i've been working for 7 freaking years and either watched people move up in the company or come and go, i've been the only one sticking around in the same old position. i'm always the employee that's been with the company the longest in every store that i work at. god, i must be missing something. i ve past up promotion after promotion for the last 6 years just because i don't want to work for starbucks for the rest of my life. i want something bigger but can never seem to reach it. i just don't want to settle.
so i have every confidence that i have what it takes, i just need a bit of success right now to get me out of this slump.
sudz--> you didn't get me down with that comment, that's just the first thing i thought of when i read my rejection letter because i had just read the post. it was actually a really good anology (sp?).